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The Prodigal Returns Home: Part 6 of Creation and the Elohim

He had been a child when he left. As a child, he had natural strength, but not the knowledge or might to go against his father. On his return, the Prodigal Son saw the devastation that had happened in his absence. But he did not blame himself any longer for not being able to free his mother or fully stop Guile from enacting darkness. In divine order, and with the might and wisdom gained in his journey, the Son overthrew Guile and restored the Divine Mother to her rightful place. Still, he doubted a little. 

“Mother,” the Son said when he freed her, “Forgive me for being born. Forgive me for leaving you here.”

Knowing that he needed her assurance, the Divine Mother answered his plea. “I forgave you before you were born,” she said. “I love you. And I have always been proud of you.” And at her words, the Son finally saw how it had always been so.

While the Great Mother could not control the creation of her son, by her desire she created a way through him to resolve the darkness of Guile. Darkness was part of the inheritance of the Son. It was his to wield, and his to master. Without it, he would not have had an understanding of the darkness, and therefore would have no knowledge of the contrast between it and the Light of Source. 

The Son’s desire to choose and align with Light was his, yet it also aligned with the desires of his mother. As the Son chose Light at every opportunity, he gained greater alignment with Source, and therefore greater alignment with the might required to rule. Being exposed to both Light and Dark allowed for choice, which led to developing wisdom. As he grew wise, so he grew in love.

His father’s desire to create a being who would be able to rule All of Creation also aligned with his desire. The Son did not care who ruled, so long as that rule was just. Being capable of rule, the Son decided to be just. He learned to judge rightly. He also learned to apply mercy where justice failed to meet the need.

The Son, having been adopted by Elohim, and recognizing that Guile and Elohim were fragments of the Great Father, had a vantage point that allowed him to see clearly. When the Great Father cast aside his darkness, or shadow, he did not realize that doing so would create a being that could overthrow the Great Mother. In the capture and disintegration of Guile, it was understood that Elohim must re-integrate the neutralized darkness in order to become whole.

With the Great Father whole once more, and the Great Mother freed, the groundwork for mending Creation was finally anchored. The Divine Father and the Divine Mother,  healed and reunited, were joined by the Divine Child in harmonious union. What was once born in suffering became embraced in joy. From this reunion, Creation began to heal.

Without the dissolution of Guile, many previous attempts at harmony had failed. Each failure had dragged away Creation’s hope, and allowed for more darkness, more pain, more suffering. Guile and all the beings who had worked for and with him continued to enact Conquest and Oppression, even as the Light aspect worked to establish peace and love.

Guile’s influence had protected Lucifer, but with Guile’s dissolution, there was no place for Lucifer to hide. The Son had battled Lucifer many times, and each time he had gained wisdom. This last time, the Son gained victory, because he knew and embraced himself and his place in Creation. As this truth came to light, Lucifer was dispatched.

The work was not over, however. Full rectification, because it involved all of Creation, would take all of Creation to complete. Guile and Lucifer had not worked alone, and the template for splitting off darkness had continued in many creatures.

The hope of each individual, and their initial desire for Creation, needed to revive. As each Creature awakened to hope, they began to awakening to their own power. Creation began to speak truth, unfettered by lies, and when they did so, each being remembered: as they were all Creatures, they were all Creators.

True power empowers All. True leadership inspires All to participate in a common cause. The Son, in his travels, had learned the truth he had been born with: every aspect of Creation is God, and when each aspect speaks, it is so.

It is with the ending of this story that I share this wisdom for all Lightworkers to understand and implement in their work. The magic of co-creation is this: Unity in Purpose, Harmony of Expression.

We do not need to be someone else to embody our own power. We do not need to cast aside our own darkness to enact light. As we act in love, with mutual respect for our unique desires, we create All of Creation and give life to the Universe of Love.  As we honor and embrace ourselves, and our fellow beings, we place our own balance of light and dark into proper harmony.

Let us do so now, for each Creator has their own beautiful desire to add to the whole of Creation, and the time to mend the split in Creation is now. Much love to you all, Glorious Creators.

-Elihu John

This message is channeled through Temperance, and Judge in the Spiritual Courts.

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Collective Reading December 8-14: Part 2: The Great Father and Guile

Let us view the story from another perspective.

Elohim, the Great Father, was not always separate from Guile, the Archon Father. In the beginning, when the Great Mother who is the Source of All created the Great Father by her Word, Elohim and Guile were one being. This being created with the Great Mother in harmony and joy, exploring the depths of creation together.

Because the creations of the Great Father and Great Mother were many and varied, they included both light and dark. The darkness concerned the Great Father. Elohim, desiring to purify creation, and seeing the variations of existence, questioned his own worthiness to create from his wholeness. He found the darkness within his being and cast it from him. The Great Mother, seeing the danger, was opposed to this separation, but could not stop him. They quarreled and parted. He then built a fortress and brought the lightest light of his creations with him into it, where they would then create from greater purity.

The Great Mother was heartbroken, but more than that, as predicted, she was unable to quell the darkness left behind. The darkness that Elohim cast out took the name Guile, becoming the dark counterpart of the Light Father. Guile enslaved the creation that was left, including the Great Mother. 

Guile’s desire and gift centered around directing the creation of others. He did not develop the skill to create new, and he hated that the ability to do so left with the rest of the Great Father. From a sense of powerlessness and hatred, Guile designed a way to rule over the All. He knew that if the Great Mother spoke, it was so, and that if she could not speak directly, others would be able to speak enough of her truth that Creation would not cease. He also knew that her Word was the key to creation.

Against her will, the Great Mother bore a son imbued with the duality of the highest light and the deepest dark, and Guile began to bring him up in the ways of Oppression and Conquest. This son was the Firstborn of the Great Mother and Guile.

No matter what Guile taught him, the Firstborn rebelled. Many could not see through the lies, for Guile was intelligent and subtle, but, being gifted the strength and wisdom to be a great leader, the Firstborn could not be deceived for long. He learned and grew quickly. Eventually, Guile realized he could not carry out his plan with one who was powerful enough to see through and reject him.

So Guile devised another plan. This time, he took only enough creation from the Great Mother to cast a sheen of light over his secondborn son, who was otherwise an exact copy of Guile. This secondborn he named Lucifer. Under the tutelage of Guile, Lucifer learned to hate light, to hate his mother, and to hate his older brother. He learned to trick and enslave, and practiced these concepts in various ways until he was proficient in them. His desire to find new ways to deceive, and to delight in the effects of deception, fueled his ability to do so.

When he was ready, Lucifer left the Archon Fortress and, displaying abject misery, begged to be let into the Fortress of the Elohim. His pathetic story of neglect and disfavor touched the heart of Elohim, who took him in with open arms. Because he could not embrace his darkness, the Great Father could not transmute it into wisdom. Elohim was unable to discern the trickery. Lucifer, succeeding in pulling out the heartstrings of the light counterpart of his father, touched these strings with intention and thereby wove darkness onto them. This darkness grew and spread. Lucifer took these strings and wound them around Elohim. With each successive interaction, Lucifer wound the dark strings another pass. Thread by thread, Elohim was bound, blinded, and enslaved.

Still the Great Father desired to create Light and overcome Darkness, and as he gathered his children, the collective Elohim, around him, they planned the Universe.

-Elihu John

This is a continuation of the creation story, as told by Temperance, a Judge in the Spiritual Courts.

Due to the nature of the story, this work will be continued weekly until it is told in full. It is time for All of Creation to begin hearing the voice of the Great Mother. This is part of the rise of the Divine Feminine, and the restoration of true balance in the Universe.

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Collective Reading November 3-9: Clarify Your Intentions

Everything that is was created from the blank material of Source. When something is created in the mind, it manifests in the physical according to that blueprint. Therefore, it is important to clean up your blueprints in the space before creation.

Earth life has introduced a space between intention and creation that we as humans came here to take advantage of in our growth experience. I know it feels like we are trying to gain the opposite (less space between intention and creation) but what we are actually doing in this life is finding the balance of the pause and using it to double check our intentions. This is also why we need the contrast of light and dark. Without that contrast, we would have nothing to compare our attempts at creation to.

Sacred geometry is the study of manifesting ideas. We can manifest in small or large scale because the blueprint of the geometric intention is a predictable and repeating pattern. So, too, our deepest, simplest intentions can be either small or large, and still hold their original intent.

Complicated designs may seem easier to create because they remind us of our imperfect executions in their variations and interest. We have sentimental attachment to these combination creations when we recall being praised for our efforts. We may also have negative feelings if we were criticized or shamed for our early attempts.

There is a difference between deliberately complicated intentions and accidentally complicated ones. If you were to try to replicate the imperfect creations you practice, it would be almost impossible.

A robust complex design that stands up to the test of time is able to be replicated because it is fully mapped out in sacred mathematics. Much like a math problem we could write on paper, each piece of sacred geometry is entirely described in one equation.

Unconditional love is one such sacred equation. If you apply the equation to your desire to create delicious food, you will express unconditional love through the medium or material of a meal. If you sew a piece of clothing or a blanket with unconditional love, that coding is sewn into the design.

You don’t need to apply more than one intention or equation. Rather, it is easier to refine and clarify your intention by applying that one formula consistently, no matter what you’re doing. When you have mastered that, you may choose another formula to practice until that is consistent, too. Then and only then can you apply both formulas together.

Practice means that sometimes the product has flaws. If you know the formula you’re intending, those flaws in the formula are traceable. Maybe you practiced unconditional love with an accidental inclusion of the formula of lack, and it brought jealousy and competition. The thing you created is going to reflect that combination.

Bringing our awareness back to the concept of our early attempts at creation, I remind you that how you treat yourself and your practice in creating beautiful things in your life now affects the formula you practice on the next attempt. Be kind to yourself as you honor your imperfect attempts. Learn to take the good and leave the bad.

Some helpful mantras when we encounter criticism:
“Yes, some of this is true.”
“I’m getting better as I practice.”
“My next attempt will be even better.”
“I am doing exceptionally well, given what I have to work with.”

A helpful mantra when we try to use objects or services that have been made with mixed intentions: “Yes, some of this is good. Thank you for the good.”

We can then separate and clear out the negative, and still use the positive.

If you’re resonating with this info, know that the Universe loves you and is so happy to be sharing this information with you. You’re ready to put your intentions into action and create the beauty you came here to create. Congratulations on achieving this much in your journey so far.

-Elihu John

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Collective Reading September 1-7: Run the Gauntlet

This week we have the opportunity to find out.

I hear the words, “Run the gauntlet.” A traditional running of the gauntlet was a ritualistic offering rather like releasing the over-abundance of a catch. The image I am getting with the phrase is of throwing back the fish that are too small, or releasing prisoners who had enough courage to dare to be free–or die trying.

We are the ones who survived and are now given the chance to escape. Will survivor guilt hold you back from claiming the opportunity that is yours?

There is no fairness in this predicament, when seen from this vantage point. You demand justice and equity for all. But if you don’t get out of harm’s way and return home to regain your strength (and reinforcements), who will come back to jailbreak those who can’t leave? Can you lift others to higher ground when you are not strong?

Survivor guilt robs you of the drive to succeed. And the irony is that you don’t need to see others with this lens of pity. We are each runners of our own gauntlet. This chance you have has nothing to do with anyone else, and vice versa. You manifested an opportunity for a better way of being, which was the whole point of your journey anyway. Trust that they have every opportunity to do the same.

You do not know what is behind the failures and successes of others. Pity robs them of their resilience and honor. Allow for things to be unfair now, and know that you have great ability to offer a helping hand when the timing is right, but the timing isn’t always right. You are not less good or less worthy when you are unable to be of use. This is a time for you to receive and still be worthy.

Four of Earth cautions you to first turn the key in the lock, and then try the handle. You can open the door easily if you open it the right way. You don’t need to turn yourself into a battering ram.

Remember that your abundance feels like coming home. Your harvest is the fruit of your labors, and you have earned it. Even if you are tired or lacking drive now, your past efforts still have value. You will be able to give again when you have accumulated the strength and wisdom to do so.

Believe in your worthiness to receive good things and you will find the easy path through the gauntlet. It will work out the way you are ready for.

Live long and well,

Elihu John

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Collective Reading May 19-25: Don’t Delay Joy

Going inward is called for here. There is so much growth to be had in how you deal with restrictions this week, but you will enjoy it and benefit from it to its full effect if you can become aware of your own truths and allow everyone else’s truths to fade from your awareness.

Your authority, your right to exist, and your right to grounding were never truly taken from you, because they cannot be. But the de facto situation has found you lacking in all of them to one degree or another. And honestly, no matter when you get to the final resolution of your woes, you deserve to live in joy now. The military saying, “You cannot take from, only add to,” explains the technicalities that have kept you from living in abundance. “Yes, but…” is just adding hoops to jump through and delaying the receiving.

I’m seeing this show up not only in the outer world but also in the inner mind. One begets the other, but the one you can control the most is what’s in you. When you can regulate and allow your emotions to pass through in response to a restriction, you can get to the next step of solving the problem more quickly. Acknowledge the problem and how you feel about it, and then say to yourself, “Anyway…”

You deserve a joyful life. The best revenge is a life well lived. You may not be able to remove the sad times, but the average of your emotional states can still be great. If you lose one penny but have 99 left, you have kept the greater share. So, too, if you spend less time dwelling in frustration, you will have more minutes in your day that are full of whatever pleases you.

This is not to encourage spiritual bypassing or emotional bypassing. Your frustrations are still there and still valid. But if you can validate and love yourself through them, you will more easily navigate to the unconditional love that feeds your soul. Acceptance of what is lessens your resistance to things you cannot change.

So keep going, sweet soul. You are not less lovable for struggling. Rather, you need to allow more love in to balance that hurt, and the Universe has plenty of love just waiting for you to allow it in.

-Elihu John

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Throat Chakra Healing and Neck Tension

Woman receiving neck massage. Photo by cottonbro studio

I found myself crying this morning, and it got me thinking about what a privilege it is to be able to cry in peace.

There is an expectation when you start HRT for gender transition that taking T will prevent being able to cry. This is not a universal experience, and generally reported as temporary. I would like to share my experience with this phenomenon.

When I considered starting T, I was informed that it would enlarge my vocal cords permanently. This would change my singing voice, as I would no longer be able to access the higher registers in the same way, if at all, but it would also open up my lower register. Vocal training was an option on the table, but so was doing nothing and just allowing my body to adjust. I half joke that I was a professional singer as a child. I auditioned and got into a local singing group starting in early elementary school, participated in the Jazz festival in high school, and contemplated going pro in college, but ultimately felt like it wasn’t right for me. I sang in church every week and performed on stage, as you do in the culture I grew up in. I took voice lessons from two different teachers outside of choir practice and was generally acknowledged to be talented. Once I felt I had learned enough soprano, I moved to alto and worked into the lowest registers I could reach. I love singing.

All that being said, I decided that the risk of discomfort and permanent changes to my voice was worth the benefits, and that if I needed help, I could get it.

As my body changed, my vocal cords thickened, causing my throat to feel tighter and protrude slightly. It was amazing to be able to use a vocal range that I’d always had in my head, but never was able to replicate in real life. It felt so nice to finally feel like my body was the way it should be in many aspects. But the tension of parts developing without the growth of the tissues surrounding them gradually started causing problems.

I had more headaches. When I felt deep emotions, I would get that “lump in my throat” sensation, which would just sit there blocking everything for days. More interesting to me is the fact that, while my throat chakra had been pretty blocked previously, the blocks were shifting. Self-expression in the form of showing up transmasc, among other things (pursuing a career is a major throat chakra thing), allowed me greater latitude to express myself, but it also brought to the forefront throat chakra issues that tied directly to physical blocks.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have access to my feelings; I’ve always been a deep feeler. But I couldn’t cry. It would start up, get stuck, and then not go anywhere. I was frustrated, and a bit bewildered. So, being a massage therapist, and believing in the power of massage, I booked myself a massage session with a trusted practitioner who also works with energy.

There is a connection between the physical body and the emotional body. When my practitioner began loosening up the tissue surrounding the vocal cords, I went into deep processing and was finally able to have an emotional release. Not only that, the headaches from pent up feelings and chronic tension in my neck improved, and my spine has stayed in alignment better.

Along with regular self-care and self-treatments, I have had repeat sessions with people who can hold that space with me from time to time. It is harder holding it by myself, and I need a couple days after the work to really process through what gets released. I have found significant improvement in my vocal range, physical comfort, and self-expression. I am actually more well-connected to my emotional expression now than I was before starting T, because it catalyzed and supports the real-world changes I’ve needed to make to be healthy. Writing and speaking about not only how I feel but also the work I do has always been kind of scary. It’s a process, learning to show up as me and do the work I’m here to do, as I grew up being pushed into a very small box. This is all part of healing my throat chakra.

Note that energy work will prompt changes in your life, so if you’re ready to finally break free of restrictions and start living authentically, this work can be a key resource. If you are going through physical symptoms of throat chakra blockage, I would highly recommend energy-integrated massage to address the issue. And of course, you don’t have to be trans or on hormones to clear and balance your throat chakra. We all have throat chakras, and they all need support.

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General Reading for August 6-12: The Finish Line

What good is emotional maturity if you never use it?

All the work you have been doing lately to build up your own character has been a means to an end–although it is nice to recall that growth is the goal of the journey in some ways. But that is beside the point. Right now, the Universe of Light urges you to give in to your deep desire to complete the task at hand.

Do the work. Complete the goal. Close the deal. You have been so weary of always searching and never finding. You have been painting a mural but losing sight of the blueprint. It’s as if you have gotten so lost in the weeds that you cannot remember what it feels like to know where you’re at. That mindset has its place in the long slog, but not at the finish line.

You are in sight of the finish line. In the past, you have relied on people cheering you from the sidelines, holding your vision as you trudged on blind. Now, you must awaken your inner vision and let it ignite you again. Remember why you started this in the first place. Remember what it feels like to succeed. You need that feeling to cross the finish line. Open your inner eyes and focus on the goal. It’s nice to have people cheering, but remember that you were the one who asked them to come cheer, not the other way around. Give them a good show.

The Universe knows you’re tired. It has witnessed every step you’ve taken. All it asks is that you set aside the tiredness and focus on the energy within you. Remember: you are an infinite being. You put on tiredness like a coat. You can take it off, when you reconnect with your Highest Self. You can put on any mood or energy in the Universe, without having your circumstances reflect it in the least. You just have to find the frequency or feeling of what you want.

In order to find the frequency, do something you love. You may be out of routine, or far away from something that you normally have at your fingertips. Spend that time you have been obligated to take cooling your heels doing what you can. Instead of moping about missed opportunities or a messed up schedule, check off your to do list in other ways. Find the aspect(s) of your life that you’ve been neglecting, and put your suddenly free energies to good use. Don’t waste time. Charge forward. This is the sprint at the end of the race, and it’s going to feel different. When you get across that finish line, that feeling is going to change again.

Maybe you can’t believe there are different ways to feel just yet, but remember that belief is what you have when you don’t know. And remember that there are people who have already crossed their finish lines and know how possible it is. Just because you can’t see it from here doesn’t mean it’s imaginary. Go prove that belief right.

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General Reading for July 23-29: Level Up

9 of Water, or 9 of Cups, is all about counting the things you have already attained in order to change your personal narrative. There is a lot here saying to let go of the negative stories you tell about your life, let go of any identities or boxes you’ve put yourself or had other people put you in. Your personal power lies in your ability to assess what you have and use it accordingly.

“Change the narrative, change the game.” What is your objective in life? How have you succeeded in it? Are you yearning for something new, and how have you been prepared to receive it already? Sometimes the skills we learned in one job prepare us for the job we haven’t applied for yet. Skills learned in a low-pay job can translate into skills needed for a higher-pay job.

The Magician says that you already have the skills needed, but maybe you haven’t categorized them as such yet. Need 5 years’ experience in problem-solving? Turns out you have ten, when looking at it from another perspective. Need a good reference? Look at your coworkers and previous supervisors and how you positively contributed to their work flow. Put your assets into play and be proud of where you came from. 9 of Cups in Rider-Waite shows a man with 9 cups behind him, celebrating his legacy in his accomplishments. 9 is the end of a cycle, an invitation to dream bigger now that you have accomplished this level.

Fear is what is holding you back. Fear, and an outmoded perspective that needs to be rewritten. This is a week for pursuit, knowing that every step you take leads you further along your path, knowing that even the steps that seem to be in opposing directions are leading you forward. Everything that is happening is happening to lead you forward, no matter how it looks. Contrast shows you what you don’t want, which helps you know what you want even better.

If you get overwhelmed, take some time to reconnect with your Higher Self. Find inner stillness and breathe it into your body. From there it will percolate into your life naturally. Everything is happening for your highest good in some way. Trust that and find the silver lining. You are succeeding now, you will succeed in future, and you have been succeeding all along. Your objective and expectation is the thing that has changed.

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