You are learning what it is like to be filled again. For so long, you’ve been scraping the bottom of the barrel on your energy reserves, money reserves, and every form of abundance. This was acceptable to you because you believed that having these things brought hardship or shame.

What really made you feel bad was not having the abundance, but rather the way people treated you when you had it. The jealousy, devaluing, and outright thievery you experienced caused you to believe that you would be safer if you just gave it all away. People-pleasing was rewarded with a lessening of the aggression. Eventually, you became convinced that you were always without, that that was all you had ever known. Paradoxically, these same thieves told you that because you had very little, you were less than them–as they flaunted your riches as their own.

A tool becomes dangerous in the hands of someone unequipped to wield it, and that is exactly what happened. Misuse and lack of wisdom created a worsening situation, until finally, you decided that it was time for you to step in and reclaim what is yours. Any honest mistakes you made couldn’t be worse than a deliberate abuse of power.

And that is exactly what you are doing. As you reclaim your rightful place, gifts, possessions, and relationships, you once again feel abundant. It may feel weird, and that’s okay.

Be patient with yourself as you adjust. Triggers will surface for you to deal with, but you have what you need to work through them. You deserve the abundance, and you are remembering what to do with it. It will feel natural again soon enough.

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-Elihu John