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You are learning what it is like to be filled again. For so long, you’ve been scraping the bottom of the barrel on your energy reserves, money reserves, and every form of abundance. This was acceptable to you because you believed that having these things brought hardship or shame.

What really made you feel bad was not having the abundance, but rather the way people treated you when you had it. The jealousy, devaluing, and outright thievery you experienced caused you to believe that you would be safer if you just gave it all away. People-pleasing was rewarded with a lessening of the aggression. Eventually, you became convinced that you were always without, that that was all you had ever known. Paradoxically, these same thieves told you that because you had very little, you were less than them–as they flaunted your riches as their own.

A tool becomes dangerous in the hands of someone unequipped to wield it, and that is exactly what happened. Misuse and lack of wisdom created a worsening situation, until finally, you decided that it was time for you to step in and reclaim what is yours. Any honest mistakes you made couldn’t be worse than a deliberate abuse of power.

And that is exactly what you are doing. As you reclaim your rightful place, gifts, possessions, and relationships, you once again feel abundant. It may feel weird, and that’s okay.

Be patient with yourself as you adjust. Triggers will surface for you to deal with, but you have what you need to work through them. You deserve the abundance, and you are remembering what to do with it. It will feel natural again soon enough.

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Have a great week! You got this.

-Elihu John

In order for something new to be created, you must first understand enough of what went poorly up until now to make different choices.

Not everything that happened badly in your life was your doing. Much like a child catching a cold in the first week of going to a new school, you simply were not prepared to fight off something you had never encountered before. How could you know what you didn’t know? How could you have immunity to something you had never experienced before?

The virus may not have been of your creation, but now that it’s in your immune system, it is your responsibility to get well.

There is no need to shame yourself for getting hurt. There is no need for blame. Tearing yourself or another person down for succumbing to illness merely adds insult to injury, and makes it harder to recover. Acceptance of what is and compassion for suffering are key.

It is tempting to be afraid of what happened to you or someone else, but fear is only useful when it catalyzes good action. If overused, it results in victim blame, wasted resources, and needless isolation. It is reasonable to wash your hands or wear a mask if you encounter illness. It is unreasonable to yell at someone to try to make them wash their hands or use a mask. Connection and empathy are antithetical to shame and control, and getting someone to do something up to your own standards out of fear either fails to work entirely or comes at the cost of the relationship. This manifests over time and is not easily visible right away to most people.

We as humans learn to shut down our perceptions because we are taught that seeing too much or pointing out what is wrong gets us in trouble. We learn how to remain silent, because we are afraid of the cost of failing. We have a lot to unlearn when we uncover our own intuition and spiritual gifts.

The gift of perceiving truth will ask you to sacrifice the shame and guilt you accepted so that you could fit in with people who wished to hide their own flaws. It will prompt you to pull back and tune out the voices of others so that your own voice is recognizable. The Hermit reminds you that there is authority in being able to hear and speak your truth. Being alone is sometimes necessary, but being lonely is optional.

You are creating light out of darkness, not because you made the dark, but because you have had the raw material to create light handed to you. Never underestimate your ability to alchemize darkness into light. Goodness is born out of the lack of it. You are the secret sauce.

This journey promises success and healing to those who accept it. Just as misfortune happened without you creating it, allow and expect miracles to happen when needed. You have everything necessary. Keep going.

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Have a great week!

-Elihu John

There are rainbows and flags all over this reading. This is a confirmation of everything we are doing to stand up and be ourselves, exercise our rights as humans, and live authentically.

Wind Father has a special message this week: in everything you fight for, be sure you are finding solutions where everyone wins. There will always be differences, and championing your cause is right, but success comes in finding harmony. If it feels difficult, it is because you are coming across wounding, aka trauma, surrounding the problem at hand. While your emotions are valid, they may not be fully rooted in the present moment. Give yourself extra time and space to practice self-compassion this week. You’re doing a lot.

With movement forward, there can be a lot of noise. Your goal is to simplify what you can, tune out what you’re not responsible to fix, and keep going. There is so much possibility that it may feel overwhelming trying to pick one next step. The Chariot reminds you that all the choices you feel have potential will lead you where you’re going. There isn’t just one way to do this. Let someone else take the path that is most direct for them, while allowing yourself the path that makes the most sense for you. Again, being different from every other person on the planet is normal. Maybe the scenic route is better sometimes.

If there were no contention or disagreement, there would be no need to make peace. What if you stopped trying to make everything be something it isn’t and instead put your energy into doing what you’re supposed to be doing? You have enough energy to do YOUR job. Steve over there isn’t your problem.

Keep going. You’re doing the work to crawl out of the chrysalis and will soon catch sight of your beautiful wings.

-Elihu John

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With long-term shifts in how we live, think, believe, and act, the continuance of change can feel relentless. Excitement fades as the new becomes monotonous. So what keeps us going now?

Endurance is only worthwhile when we believe in the results. Without that belief in our inner knowing, our minds begin to ruminate on the doubt. What if we were wrong? What if it doesn’t get better? What if what we cannot see doesn’t truly exist?

Doubt is part of the journey. Without it, we cannot use imagination, hope, or creativity. These things cannot exist when they are prescribed. If the story is already written, you have to follow it to the end, but if it is still unwritten, you have the chance to create a new ending, navigate a new course, and be curious.

When you realize that the journey from darkness to light is one journey, and that you cannot have one without the contrast of the other, you must then accept that the things you have been fighting against will exist as long as the light exists–as long as you exist.

This is shadow work at its finest. When the dark is put back in balance, and the fear is vanquished, you can love and appreciate it in safety, knowing that everything is a tool to suit your highest purpose.

You exist for a good reason. Trust that belief until you know. You are capable of making use of the darkness you have experienced and will experience. Trust that when you embody yourself and show up, you will be more powerful than any darkness you encounter.

Imagine your life like a mathematical equation, with all sorts of complicated formulas equal to one simplified answer. You are not the problem. You are a variable that can help solve the problem. If you stop existing, the problem goes unsolved because your variable is missing. But here’s the funniest part, and the part that undoes the last few sentences.

You are equal to the whole equation. Which means that if any part of you is destroyed by the darkness, you will be reborn into the missing variables to complete the equation again. And through many lives, you have done exactly that.

You just don’t die. It doesn’t matter how much the dark tries to kill you, fearing your light. You will be reborn into the equation until the problem is simplified into oneness. Until darkness is once again unified back into light and opposing forces become unified again, you will continue to come back, more powerful than before, more wise than before.

You are both a variable in the unsolved equation and the whole solution, because you exist on all dimensions of existence. When you connect back into the Source of Who You Are, you become one with the solution, and the parts that were depleted or destroyed are replenished.

So when you find yourself exhausted, lost, or doubting, still your mind. Meditate and reconnect to your Source. You will feel peace and power again.

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Have an empowering week.

-Elihu John

This week, we are finding out how to get to yes. So much of your frustration has been wrapped up in how you have handled being told no. No, you cannot always have it your way; no, you cannot always have it easy. That’s not the point. There isn’t as much difference between yes and no as you have been led to believe.

The point of your experiences has been to teach you where your power truly is, and how to interact within a system or community. In doing so now, be aware of how you internalize your perception of cause and effect. Is it truly unfair, or have you been misusing your power and focusing on the opposite of what you want? Victimhood turns to survivorship as you divest yourself of the negative bullshit you were handed, and take back your power. Good sportsmanship is everything right now.

Think of manifestation and opposites like a game of Pin the Tail on the Donkey. You’ve received a blindfold, been spun around wildly, and then felt your way toward what you thought was the right direction. Before putting on the blindfold, you knew which direction you should go. And you still do, deep down.

Your best bet for choosing the direction you want to go in now is to reorganize the information you’re getting. Being blinded and dizzy are not something you can fully remove at this point, but you can let the dizziness fade as you listen for the direction of the crowd around you, take experimental steps, and course correct.

Even if you are having a hard time hearing your guides, your loudest opposition can be useful to orient you to where you shouldn’t go. Triangulate your position and direction from all the useful data you have, and don’t take the heckling to heart. They are just playing a silly game, and you happen to be the center of it at this point.

The Magus reminds you that you have everything you actually need, so apply it properly. Notice that the person on the card is also blindfolded. Their hands are connecting up and down, grounding and inspiration. The table before them holds tools at working level and gives them something to lean against, and their feet are feeling the ripples of energy coming in with opposing tides. Each ripple holds valuable information.

Trust that your path is unfolding in the perfect timing for you. If you haven’t gotten to the success part yet, what small wins have you had? Remember that this is a game, and that enjoying the playing of it is what makes it fun. It’s your turn to pin the tail on now. Even if you miss, you’re getting a turn, and you have people cheering you on. No one is punished for missing the donkey’s rear end, so relax into the moment and enjoy the attention. It is all coming together for your highest good.

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Have a wonderful week, and thank you for being part of this collective!

-Elihu John