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Collective Reading March 24-30: The Key Is Within You

The theme of this week is personal empowerment. You have been accustomed to being limited and powerless. As people, we like to think that those who seek to control others are the only ones who crave that dynamic. When control is predictable, those under oppression tend to cling to it. After all, no one wants to go from the frying pan to the fire. No one wants to experience it “getting worse.” And so you let fear control your actions, and when control crumbles, you feel more fear.

Being “good” has been tied to being safe, while unpredictability has been associated with unspeakable horrors. There is no room for living outside the expected norms when doing so causes (more visible) punishment. However, the idea that being controlled is better than being free is an illusion, and couldn’t be further from the truth.

You asked for positive change in your life. You asked for freedom. Not fleeting ups to balance out the downs, but consistent and successive wins. And the Universe said yes.

It is natural to feel afraid or uncertain in this stage of growth. That doesn’t mean you are making a mistake.

It feels risky to put yourself out there and ask for the Universe to meet you halfway, but it is even more damaging not to. Your people, your place, and your possessions are waiting for you, so focus on being there for them to meet you. What shows up is what you are ready for. If you want something more, get ready for it inside yourself. What is yours is waiting on you.

The fact is that you are strong, powerful, wise, and capable. You can create whatever you truly want–and believe you deserve. The biggest thing holding you back now is your fear of seeing things as they are. When you accept what is, you put yourself in a position to influence the outcome. This relationship to reality is one of mutual influence. You can’t get to the top of the stairs if you don’t know where the steps are.

If you don’t have answers or solutions yet, get back to being present with yourself. All the answers are within you. Trust that they are perfect for you.

Remember that it is a very brave thing to come here to Earth with the intent to grow and transform yourself. The evolution of your soul is a huge undertaking. The work you do here is your sacrifice to the collective, and requires no further payment from you in order to gain adequate support. You deserve support just for being here.

You are the one who gets to choose your destiny. Get real with what you want and deserve, and take steps to get it. The key is within you.

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Collective Reading March 17-23: Keep Shifting

When a situation or problem seems impossible to move through, you are called upon to settle yourself. No clear way forward means you have not accepted the reality of what is. This is your first step.

I’m seeing a lot of cooperation, network, and collaboration in this reading, which means that your way forward is through connecting with others.

In order to have good relationships with others you must be available as a healed, balanced person. Unhealed parts stuck in trauma will bring more of the same relationship drama, so you need to wipe the slate.

Your trauma was created in relationship, therefore the healing must happen in relationship. This process is designed to push you out of victim mentality and into healthy self-empowerment, but it often feels like your kryptonite. Know that you are powerful enough for this healing.

I am reminded of the joke about when God created the Earth and humans to live on it, and after a while, Eve comes to him with a problem to solve. God, being this self-absorbed father figure, is pleased to have an opportunity to offer her something big and showy. Eve asks for equality in pay and rights, and for social justice. And God says no, that’s too big, and offers her a unicorn instead.

When we ask for justice from oppressive overlords who designed a system to be unequal, we have one of two options for how that goes: either they will offer something that makes them feel good about themselves, or they will flat-out deny the request and make the asker feel bad for even thinking of it. To get what you want, you would have to trick them into giving it to you against their broader design.

God in the joke is a deity made in the image of the oppressor, and not a reflection of a true creator-god.

Your big healing task this week is to de-deify the power structure that has kept you feeling like you’re asking for too much. Come back into your claim to equal rights. Come back into your ability to interface with people in a fair and balanced way that meets everyone’s needs. There truly is no natural injustice; inequality is not sanctioned by whatever gods created you, and you should never feel guilty for needing and receiving what you need. Stop settling for crumbs.

Understand that when you are in the process of negotiating with an unfair power structure, you will sometimes have to take the best deal on offer while you work toward better. But that is only a stop-gap until you are able to get more.

Be patient, and work on your inner belief in what you truly deserve while the manifestation of your previous belief plays out. The night must shift into daylight when you are moving yourself toward the Sun, but you may still need to take several steps through the darkness to get there.

You are meant to thrive regardless of what is going on outside of you. You are resilient, like a dandelion growing in the crack of the sidewalk. However gradual the shift, or however major, keep shifting, knowing that it will happen as you are ready for it. Do your inner work to be ready.

You will know you are ready when something good happens and you can say, “Yes! I deserve this.” Recognize what good is showing up for you and you will have less resistance to receiving it. If there is resistance to receiving it, be patient and observe it until you find the release.

You deserve to thrive. Keep shifting.

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Throat Chakra Healing and Neck Tension

Woman receiving neck massage. Photo by cottonbro studio

I found myself crying this morning, and it got me thinking about what a privilege it is to be able to cry in peace.

There is an expectation when you start HRT for gender transition that taking T will prevent being able to cry. This is not a universal experience, and generally reported as temporary. I would like to share my experience with this phenomenon.

When I considered starting T, I was informed that it would enlarge my vocal cords permanently. This would change my singing voice, as I would no longer be able to access the higher registers in the same way, if at all, but it would also open up my lower register. Vocal training was an option on the table, but so was doing nothing and just allowing my body to adjust. I half joke that I was a professional singer as a child. I auditioned and got into a local singing group starting in early elementary school, participated in the Jazz festival in high school, and contemplated going pro in college, but ultimately felt like it wasn’t right for me. I sang in church every week and performed on stage, as you do in the culture I grew up in. I took voice lessons from two different teachers outside of choir practice and was generally acknowledged to be talented. Once I felt I had learned enough soprano, I moved to alto and worked into the lowest registers I could reach. I love singing.

All that being said, I decided that the risk of discomfort and permanent changes to my voice was worth the benefits, and that if I needed help, I could get it.

As my body changed, my vocal cords thickened, causing my throat to feel tighter and protrude slightly. It was amazing to be able to use a vocal range that I’d always had in my head, but never was able to replicate in real life. It felt so nice to finally feel like my body was the way it should be in many aspects. But the tension of parts developing without the growth of the tissues surrounding them gradually started causing problems.

I had more headaches. When I felt deep emotions, I would get that “lump in my throat” sensation, which would just sit there blocking everything for days. More interesting to me is the fact that, while my throat chakra had been pretty blocked previously, the blocks were shifting. Self-expression in the form of showing up transmasc, among other things (pursuing a career is a major throat chakra thing), allowed me greater latitude to express myself, but it also brought to the forefront throat chakra issues that tied directly to physical blocks.

It wasn’t that I didn’t have access to my feelings; I’ve always been a deep feeler. But I couldn’t cry. It would start up, get stuck, and then not go anywhere. I was frustrated, and a bit bewildered. So, being a massage therapist, and believing in the power of massage, I booked myself a massage session with a trusted practitioner who also works with energy.

There is a connection between the physical body and the emotional body. When my practitioner began loosening up the tissue surrounding the vocal cords, I went into deep processing and was finally able to have an emotional release. Not only that, the headaches from pent up feelings and chronic tension in my neck improved, and my spine has stayed in alignment better.

Along with regular self-care and self-treatments, I have had repeat sessions with people who can hold that space with me from time to time. It is harder holding it by myself, and I need a couple days after the work to really process through what gets released. I have found significant improvement in my vocal range, physical comfort, and self-expression. I am actually more well-connected to my emotional expression now than I was before starting T, because it catalyzed and supports the real-world changes I’ve needed to make to be healthy. Writing and speaking about not only how I feel but also the work I do has always been kind of scary. It’s a process, learning to show up as me and do the work I’m here to do, as I grew up being pushed into a very small box. This is all part of healing my throat chakra.

Note that energy work will prompt changes in your life, so if you’re ready to finally break free of restrictions and start living authentically, this work can be a key resource. If you are going through physical symptoms of throat chakra blockage, I would highly recommend energy-integrated massage to address the issue. And of course, you don’t have to be trans or on hormones to clear and balance your throat chakra. We all have throat chakras, and they all need support.

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Collective Reading March 10-16: The Gardener

Your trust in the process of life is being put to the test this week. You may have seen the start of this last week, which may have thrown you into darker corners of your psyche, unhealed parts that are hurting. Know that every time you spiral into the dark with higher consciousness, you are blazing a trail of light to break up dysfunctional patterns in your energy.

If you believe that difficulty is the beginning of failure, then you will choose realities that reinforce that belief. If you believe that difficulty is the beginning of solving a problem that is ready to be healed, then you will have more trust in your own intuition, trust in your ability to handle whatever comes, and trust in the process of healing. Your mindset is the script for the plot. Better to play out a comedy than a tragedy.

The difference between a literary comedy and a literary tragedy lies in the ending. Both have seemingly catastrophic events in the plot leading up to the climax. The stakes feel high in both. Shakespeare’s comedies typically end in mass weddings. During that time period, they were a ritual of celebration that would bring together the whole community in love and cooperation. The end of your comedy revolves around harmony and union, as well. This could show up in making peace with your own shadow, or finding place in a community of people.

In a way, the stakes of your life are high, but it isn’t nearly as big as it seems when you look at the overall picture of your soul journey. You have been trying to find harmony and love the whole time, and for better or worse, this is the path to it. Trust the process. You’ve got this. Your team is here supporting you. It’s truly so much more doable than it feels. Lighten up on the reins and go back to trust when you find yourself feeling lost. If you don’t know what to do, or you have nothing to do, be still. You really can’t mess this up nearly as much as you think you can.

This knowledge might spark a series of actions testing just how far you can go to mess up your life, but if you stop, step back, and release the idea of failure, the positive energy you have already accumulated will turn your boat around again. Love is the antidote to the disquiet you’re feeling.

You are the Gardener, and this is your Garden. Allow the structure and materials you have gathered organize around you and create the life you want. To give you a clearer picture, the wheel of the card spread describes the steps:

First comes the idea of what you want, then the nonjudgmental observation of what is. Once you have identified a problem, you have the opportunity to come into acceptance and unconditional love. When you are in that space, you may till the earth. After tilling and preparing the soil comes sowing the seeds, then watering. Allow the wind to blow and the Sun to shine and the weather to change as the husk of the seeds decomposes in the damp soil. Wait. The seeds will sprout with nurturing.

After they sprout, regular care allows them to continue to grow. Weed out the plants that you don’t want and strengthen the ones you do. When mature, your garden is ready to harvest.

This is the structure. It encompasses both masculine and feminine energy in its cycles of growth and decline. It requires unconditional love, patience, empowerment, hope, discernment, and acceptance of what is. And at the end, you see the fruits of your labors and have a whole season’s worth of stories, experiences, and satisfaction.

Your life is the Garden, and you are the Gardener. You deserve this creative power and everything that comes with it. Enjoy it all.

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Collective Reading March 3-9: Sacrifice Expectations and Be Persistent

Five major arcana in this spread point to some major changes happening. This is part of the path you’re on, and therefore, it is necessary to experience it. If you have recently gone through something traumatic, you may be processing old patterns and old hurts now so that you can reach for better tools going forward.

Because this experience is necessary, it is also doable. Lean on your support network. Reach out before it gets dire. You have learned through other intense periods that it is better to anticipate and plan for your needs than to find yourself stranded on a desert highway with an empty gas tank and a dead phone battery. You survived it before, yes, but it wasn’t pretty.

Maybe you’re not in crisis when you first start thinking of reaching out. Don’t deny yourself the help you know you need. Getting support at the first sign of trouble will keep it from getting bad. Denying yourself help early before was a self-punishment, a replay of neglect you experienced. You thought that since someone else didn’t take it seriously, your needs weren’t serious. You beat yourself up for needing and not getting. You know better now.

You know that you deserve grace, love, and community. You know that you are deeply and irrevocably loved–and worthy. You also know that sometimes a problem seems bigger than it is when you are too afraid to face it head-on. You can get through anything, but that doesn’t mean you have to. Avoid the big issues by attacking them when they are small.

If you are afraid of people letting you down, consider this: the Universe brings you what you need always, but you only accept what you think you deserve. And if the answer is no from one person, that’s a redirection to something better. Keep trying. Keep being optimistic about things happening at the right time, with the right people. Your insistence and patience in pursuit of what you need is proof that you are handling this better, and having more hope than before.

Regardless of how you respond, your response is evidence of where you’re at in your path. Any deficit is merely information on how far you are, like a point on a map. The end is the same, you are the same amazing person who is going to cross that finish line and succeed. It is okay to be frustrated or mess up. Everyone starts at the beginning and ends at the end.

You always have what you truly need available to you. It only seems like you don’t because you didn’t get what you wanted in the exact way you imagined it. Let go of what you think it should be, and embrace what is, knowing that there is always a perfect solution. You are capable of everything you need to do.

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Collective Reading February 25-March 2: Play Your Part

Your ability to truly connect with others in good faith will be a highlight of this week. “My heart will love again,” is what I’m hearing. But what about your sacral? What about the roots you choose to put down now, knowing the sting of having them severed before? Expanding again takes courage, faith, and reliance on your intuition. You must learn how to trust yourself, take reasonable risks (involving deliberate use of all your faculties together), and be alright with whatever the outcome. Head, heart, eyes, and felt sense (among others) come together to give you a fuller picture.

When we experience a massive disappointment or betrayal, it isn’t the moment it happened that matters. It’s the endless time we spend afterward abusing ourselves, thinking every detail through and fitting them into a false narrative centered around how we went wrong.

Sometimes we encounter darkness simply because it is passing by. In a world of collisions and meetings, curiosity and contrast, we are bound to happen upon something we don’t like from time to time. Not everything we see is something we have to entertain. Sometimes we can let it pass through without resistance and say, “Wow, I am nothing like that. This is good information.”

It’s okay to study things we don’t understand, so long as it stays in its place. When we start to wonder whether we are the thing we saw, it becomes a problem. Your job is to stay connected to yourself and allow everything that is not you to provide the backdrop for who you are. You are not to explain yourself. You are to be seen shining. This is not pride but true humility.

The opposite of narcissism is echoism. Both are unbalanced extremes. Do not hide from the spotlight when it comes around. Stand where you’re supposed to and allow the light to go wherever it will, whether that is on you or not. “All the world’s a stage, and the people on it merely players.” Be your best self, and don’t worry about the parts of other players. You can’t speak everyone’s lines, and yours are irreplaceable. So, too, your role is uniquely made for you, and no one can play it better.

True versatility on this world stage means not depending on the position of the spotlight to maintain your position. No one is center stage all the time, and no one is in the wings all the time. We all move together as one cast, playing our separate parts.

The dark will be dark, and the light will be light. You can interact with all of it, trusting that what you see is accurate enough. Trust your judgment, learn gently from mistakes, and treat everyone accordingly. In this way, you can trust and love again, this time even better.

You were never wrong for having experienced contrast. You are here to explore everything and anything that contributes to your ultimate highest good. It will all end well; enjoy the play while it lasts.

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Collective Reading February 18-24: Harmony

The Norse story of Odin hanging upside down from the World Tree to understand the Runes holds wisdom for you this week. It is important for you to get out of victim mentality and remember that everything you come across is something you can use.

An empath will first observe, then take on the pattern of dysfunction and its accompanying symptoms, and finally unlearn and overcome these, becoming aligned with their original Self once more. Empathy is a tool that allows humans to learn from the inside out, but where people often get stuck is in forgetting who they actually are. What was merely a mask becomes their identity. You were never meant to become someone else.

Everything you know about yourself through your experiences is not really you. Who you are is the remedy to the problem. Who you are is indefinable, which is why no words to describe you will ever suffice.

Instead of trying to explain yourself, try being present. Stop intellectualizing and start existing. Stop rationalizing your feelings and start observing them. It’s hard to listen when you’re speaking. On the other hand, speaking in order to connect with others is a valid way. Those who seek healthy connection with you desire to hear what you have to say, because your words have healing behind them.

Not everyone who wants to hear you has the best intentions. Some are drawn to your energy because they don’t remember how to access their own. Be choosy with whom you share what, and why. Craving social acceptance comes from a place of wounding, whereas enjoying the company of those who are happy to be in your presence when the occasion arises allows for people to come and go without friction. You always have you.

Maintain universal boundaries so that no exceptions can circumvent your protections. Boundaries without exceptions are the simplest way and will free up the energy you need to do what you actually want to do, which is to give and receive love.

You do not need. You have everything you allow. Remember to connect with your Authentic Self in all ways, while allowing others to be themselves. Harmony is not unity. This coexistence is a dance of many partners moving on the floor in collaboration. Enjoy this expansion of your awareness, knowing you are whole in yourself.

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Collective Reading February 11-17: Alchemizing Grief

This week, we are realizing just how full our plates are. And we are invited to make choices.

You can’t hold everything all at once. You can hold higher and diverse perspectives, emotions… consciousness, essentially. Remember that emotional consciousness can either be focused and fluid, or it can wreak havoc by being stuck or chaotic.

What you feel, you manifest, and when you feel something, your brain starts to rationalize it. Unconditional well-being is the key to happiness. It seems ludicrous or insensitive to be happy when something is going wrong, though, which is why you justify it. And justifying it allows for counter-arguments, which then interrupt your well-being.

If you truly want a good life, enjoy a good feeling and let the rest of your life shape itself around it. Life is complex, and multiple things exist at once. One person’s bad day is another person’s best day, and it’s all about perspective. Your shoelace can untie and trip you, and in the next moment your coffee can be paid by the person in front of you who was catalyzed by love to cheer you up. You can either dwell on the shoelace or the kindness of a stranger. There is grace in having human moments, because the contrast gives us opportunities to love.

You can’t rationalize grief or anger away and expect them to disappear. To do so would be to deny yourself access to half of the power that you were born with. Everything that comes to you can be used for the highest good. To do that, love yourself and your feelings so fiercely that every feeling becomes sacred. You were meant to experience the full spectrum of emotions. Your experiences are your color palette in the painting of your life. How you use each color in your picture is up to you. You are the artist.

There are perfectly valid reasons to be upset everywhere you look. Understand also that the best day of your life can happen in the midst of intense suffering, because your mindset is everything. Sooner or later, the heavy things get too heavy to keep carrying, and you have to choose to surrender to unconditional love or face being pulled apart.

You don’t have to brace against having your arms rip off if you just drop the boulder. Your arms will naturally stay attached when the load you carry does not exceed the muscles and tendons. Let go of what you cannot change–and learn where it fits in the bigger picture.

Sometimes, the wisest choice is acceptance of what is, knowing that everything is okay and whole. Move with it. If you deny its existence, it will hit you. It’s like being on the ocean: you can stay on the choppy surface and only see the waves crash around you, or you can dive deeper and find the endless calm. Storms, while violent, are part of the circulation of fresh nutrients. Choose your relationship to the waves according to what feeds your soul.

You were meant for love. You deserve to write your own story, paint your own picture, and free yourself from heavy burdens. When life gets you down, you deserve to find the way back up, and when storms come, you deserve to dive deep and experience calm. The good and bad exist together because we live in duality. Denying the good will not make the bad go away. Embracing the existence of both removes resistance and clears your vision, and then you get to choose what to experience more of. For best results, choose joy.

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Collective Reading February 4-10: In the Meantime, Thrive

You have hit a new level of limitations that you are ready to dismantle. Often when we are expanding, we find ourselves stretching against a wall or box that we have been stuck inside for a while. This could be a limitation placed in a past or parallel life that has so far kept us from the success we dreamed of having. And while it feels frustrating and, at times, overwhelming, trust that you are seeing it because you are getting ready to break through.

Everything challenging that has manifested into your life has done so with the caveat that you have the power to either resolve it yourself or find someone who can do it for you. The concept of a savior is one that has been distorted to mean that the one being saved is somehow less than the one saving, and therefore the one being saved must grovel and act in submission to the one saving. But let’s walk that back.

Someone who is here to help you does not do so with the expectation of your worship or debasement. Your guides do not expect you to give them an offering, nor do the Ascended Masters, such as Jesus or Buddha or Lord Shiva. They see your incarnation as a sacrifice you made to the Universe in the common cause of clearing the darkness and bringing Enlightenment to the Earth.

You are a literal part of god incarnate, and you expect shame for what you have done out of love. No true “savior” will ever expect you to be ashamed of yourself or harm yourself in any way. In fact, doing so makes their offered help harder to offer. They don’t want to feed off you. They don’t need a tax. They have their own connection to Source to sustain them, and they have the wisdom to know when they can and cannot help. If you ask, they will tell you.

By a different token, asking for payment for service in a 3D world is not wrong. When dealing with the need for money and energy stores that are rationed over time, one must give and take in a balanced way. The act of giving and taking in itself is a meditation, designed to undo the scarcity that you experienced. Gratitude is often shown by offering payment, and receiving payment is the other half of that transaction. Energy in the form of money does not come from Earth, but from one’s connection to Source. If you are open to receive, you will receive it. If you designate that money toward your needs, you will attract the service needed that the money energy goes towards. Breathe in, breathe out. Your air is rationed, or else your lungs would explode with the sheer amount of air you inhale over your lifetime, and implode with the force of your collected outbreaths.

The limitations you feel now are centered in fear and hurt. Fear caused by some event or events that convinced you to allow harm into your experience, and hurt when you experienced something other than the unconditional love of the Universe/Universal Love/Source. That these things have happened is not in question. But are you going to sit in those past experiences and continue to draw more of them to you, or are you going to climb out of the cold and dirty tub of water that was once fresh and hot? The past is done. Stop wallowing in it. Leave it be and move on to the next thing.

How do you hold both the reality of suffering and the reality of abundance? How do you recognize that bad things have happened and are ramping up in some places, while also enjoying the wealth and peace that are yours to receive now? The answer lies in being in the right place at the right time.

Stop worrying about the bad. Worry freezes you and keeps you from moving to your next safe spot. If you can help solve something, do so. If you can’t, trust and ask that someone else will. We are working as a team, and that means that there are pockets of well-being and rejuvenation that each member can bask in between tasks.

You are not alone. You just do your bit for the war effort and allow the rest of the team to catch you when needed. Seven of Wind is about wisdom to know the difference between Your Work and Someone Else’s Work, and being mindful of working around the sharp edges softly so as not to cut yourself. Communication is key, and is the antidote to the loneliness.

Remember your joy and put your mind and emotions there most of the time, while allowing yourself to feel the other stuff when needed, for a limited duration. The work gets done over time. In the meantime, thrive.

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Collective Reading January 28-February 3: Leap of Faith

Collective Tarot Reading composed of 8 cards from the Tarot of the Spirit deck. Guiding Card on the left: The Universe. Central Card: Fire Father. From the top clockwise: One of Wind, Eight of Fire, Water Sister, Wind Mother, Nine of Wind, Three of Fire. These cards describe the cycle of progress found in the theme of a leap of faith.

This week is about taking a leap of faith. It sounds like a one-step deal, but if you look at it, there are actually several steps leading up to that decisive move. Imagine you, on the horse of your momentum forward, charging up to the portal in the central card. It took so much preparation to get close enough to see it, let alone build up the speed and elevation to leap into it. Give yourself some credit for getting this far.

When you get through to the other side, the effort doesn’t end. You will need the strength, concentration, and agility to land on your feet in unknown terrain. Since you can’t really see what is coming next from here, that makes it even more important to maintain equilibrium and reserve stamina. Achieving steady stamina is the first goal. Speed and agility will come with practice.

It is important to remember that you are exactly where you need to be in the process of achieving your desires. You cannot be ahead of yourself, nor would you want to be, because being ahead of yourself would mean being unprepared. Embrace where you are.

It is important to love yourself in all stages of this journey. Become aware of the devaluing that runs around your head rent-free, and put it back in its museum case. Let it be a study-able, inert historical artifact. Self-doubt and distrust of your inner knowing are ancient relics where you’re going. You have a whole world full of (merited) self-confidence ahead. That being said, there will always be new layers to your healing. You will encounter doubt again, but the work you do now to overcome it will prepare you to handle those times. This leap is the preparation for the next one.

I find it interesting that this year is a leap year, all things considered.

The Mother Wound card is showing up, which means that now is a good time to heal the hurt you feel in your divine feminine. Wind Mother is comparable to the Queen of Swords in Rider-Waite Tarot, which is about learning grace through suffering. Be mindful of your emotions and what triggers them. When you identify negative self-talk, set it down and go back to comforting your inner child. Start thinking again when you feel good again, and positive self-talk will be a natural result. Resisting negative emotion reinforces it, so be soft.

Don’t measure your progress by your speed. Sometimes you need to slow down so that you can gather strength. When you’re ready, it will happen quickly. Then you will need recovery time, which is another gathering. This is normal for feminine growth cycles. If you have ever sprouted seeds, you know that the stages of growth are baffling, but the change in size is astronomical. As long as you stay upright in relation to the Sun, you’re on the right track. Any deviation sorts itself out.

Be brave and know you are equal to the task. The tiny seed grows into the giant sycamore. So, too, you grow into your Higher Self. It’s all part of the process, and you’re doing a marvelous job.